
This is a true story based on true facts and incidences. Story is written by Nitin himself.
We thank him for sharing such a wonderful story.)
My Childhood Love- ARMY
My Teenage Love- ARMY
My Adulthood Love- ARMY
This four letter word was like four directions of my life. I
never dreamt of becoming an engineer, doctor, actor or model, my dream
destination was INDIAN MILITARY ACADEMY
DEHRADOON. This was the reason I never appeared for any ‘Engineering Entrance Examination’.
I sat for NDA(National
Defence
Academy ) written examination for 5 times during my 12th
but was never able to crack it .It was disappointing and my elder brother use to taunt me “ENGINEER
BUN ENGINEER, ARMY JAKE BANDOOK UTHAYEGA
KYA” .There was immense pressure to join engineering from family and
friends. All my batch mates were joining engineering,’ few on merit and majority on donation’. I had no hard feeling
toward people joining engineering on ’donation’
but it was frustrating when fathers of such people and my relatives used to nag
my parents to do the same. My parents tried to convince me, my mother like any
other Indian mother used to feed me with daily ‘emotional doses’ but like a stubborn kid I refused to join
engineering on donation.
I joined ST.XAVIER’S
COLLEGE from where I did my B.SC (computer application). During my gradation
and after it for 5 times I appeared for CDSE (Combined Defence Service Examination)
and every time I cracked the written examination and appeared for SSB (Service
Selection Board). Here is a sequence of my first four SSB eliminations:
- First SSB: screened out from AFSB (AIR FORCE SELECTION BOARD) and eliminated on day one.
- Second SSB: got eliminated on day five i.e. Last Day. After this my parent’s expectations and my confidence increased as I was very near to achieve my dream. I was more hopeful to clear it next time.
- Third SSB: got eliminated on day one.
- Fourth SSB: got eliminated on day one.
After so much of failure and eliminations everybody around
me started treating me like a ‘maniac’
and suggested to try for something else. By this time many of my ‘engineer friends’ were getting placed in
famous companies like INFOSY, TCS, WIPRO etc. and I was a ‘pathetic manic’ still
dreaming for one and only’ INDIAN DEFENCE’. Yes I was a ‘maniac’, a ’PROUD MANIAC’.
Finally, the day of my dreams came I cleared SSB in my
fifth attempt and I was recommended for INDIAN MILITARY ACADEMY DEHRADOON.
Sometimes your efforts are not enough because even after achieving
everything you dreamt of, your ‘cruel
fate fails you’. During the SSB there was an accident, I had fallen from a
height of around eight feet during ‘individual obstacle task’. In the
final medical examination it was discovered that my backbone was injured.
Although the injury was not that big and there were chances of the injury
getting cured In future but at that time I was not fit for the ‘rigorous army routine’.
By the time my backbone became fully fit I had crossed the ‘age limit’ to apply making this ‘almost successful attempt’ my last attempt.
Now the world around me was ready to ‘suck my blood’ and in their eyes I was a ‘PARASITE’ sucking the
hard earned money of my father. I was surrounded by a sea of ‘Engineers & MBAs’ in my colony and
relatives, anybody of them getting placed anywhere was highlighted by my family
signalling that I am a ‘LOSER’.
With no chance to go in army due to crossed ‘Age Limit’ I started preparing for
masters and at last manage to get admission in SYMBIOSIS ,PUNE in M.Sc(CA) via SNAP in June 2010. Now some ‘caring’ people started ‘worrying’ that I will get spoiled in the
‘ultra-modern’ environment of
Symbiosis(image of symbiosis in my area) and Pune. Many of them told my parents
‘’levies
ka jeans ,rayban sunglass ye sab kharidiye
DWIVEDI JI beta SYMBIOSIS jar aha
hai ’’.
Here in Symbiosis in the first semester I got ‘four backlogs’ as it was after two years
that I was in regular studies with a ‘really
tough syllabus’ and ‘strict grade
scheme’. In the second semester also I ended up with two backlogs .Now I started thinking what to do and what not to. Then my friends in
this college helped like AMOGH, ANKUR,
SITESH, SAMAR and many more. Then came the third semester, this time I
cleared all the paper with ‘flying colours ‘and at present I am an
intern at ‘AMIWORKS ‘my first company and I am doing stuff which I want to do .
One more interesting thing ‘FEW DAYS BEFORE I GOT MY FIRST
SALARY’.I am happy and proud of myself that I went for my dreams
against people around me to achieve it (I was selected; only my fate failed
me).
My only dream since childhood was to wish to wear a uniform.
Though I failed to achieve but it helped me to become a man. Principles and discipline of army still
guide my heart & actions and they will till I am alive. Though I failed
most of the times one thing which never changed was my parents love for me. I
will always be thankful to them for keeping patience and having trust on me. I
learned to fight from previous failure while giving SSB I learned whom to
trust and how to live life. I got my good friends who helped me though they
could have left me by making lame excuses but they didn’t. I am doing well now
but this is not the end I will do something better that will give me my own
identity and separate me from the crowd.
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Yes I Failed
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