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ARMY IN MY HEART


(Nitin Niraj tells about his struggle to get into ARMY. But fate has something else for him, though he got selected, his fate failed him.
This is a true story based on true facts and incidences. Story is written by Nitin himself.

We thank him for sharing such a wonderful story.)

My Childhood Love- ARMY
My Teenage Love- ARMY
My Adulthood Love- ARMY

This four letter word was like four directions of my life. I never dreamt of becoming an engineer, doctor, actor or model, my dream destination was INDIAN MILITARY ACADEMY DEHRADOON. This was the reason I never appeared for any ‘Engineering Entrance Examination’.

I sat for NDA(National Defence 
Academy ) written examination for 5 times during my 12th but was never able to crack it .It was disappointing and my  elder brother use to taunt me “ENGINEER BUN ENGINEER,  ARMY JAKE BANDOOK UTHAYEGA KYA” .There was immense pressure to join engineering from family and friends. All my batch mates were joining engineering,’ few on merit and majority on donation’. I had no hard feeling toward people joining engineering on ’donation’ but it was frustrating when fathers of such people and my relatives used to nag my parents to do the same. My parents tried to convince me, my mother like any other Indian mother used to feed me with daily ‘emotional doses’ but like a stubborn kid I refused to join engineering on donation.

I joined ST.XAVIER’S COLLEGE from where I did my B.SC (computer application). During my gradation and after it for 5 times I appeared for CDSE (Combined Defence Service Examination) and every time I cracked the written examination and appeared for SSB (Service Selection Board). Here is a sequence of my first four SSB eliminations:

  •    First SSB: screened out from AFSB (AIR FORCE SELECTION BOARD) and eliminated on day one.
  • Second SSB: got eliminated on day five i.e. Last Day. After this my parent’s expectations and my confidence increased as I was very near to achieve my dream. I was more hopeful to clear it next time.
  •  Third SSB: got eliminated on day one.
  • Fourth SSB: got eliminated on day one.

After so much of failure and eliminations everybody around me started treating me like a ‘maniac’ and suggested to try for something else. By this time many of my ‘engineer friends’ were getting placed in famous companies like INFOSY, TCS, WIPRO etc. and I was a ‘pathetic manic’ still dreaming for one and onlyINDIAN DEFENCE’. Yes I was a ‘maniac’, a PROUD MANIAC’.
Finally, the day of my dreams came I cleared SSB in my fifth attempt and I was recommended for INDIAN MILITARY ACADEMY DEHRADOON.


Sometimes your efforts are not enough because even after achieving everything you dreamt of, your ‘cruel fate fails you’. During the SSB there was an accident, I had fallen from a height of around eight feet during ‘individual obstacle task’. In the final medical examination it was discovered that my backbone was injured. Although the injury was not that big and there were chances of the injury getting cured In future but at that time I was not fit for the ‘rigorous army routine’.

By the time my backbone became fully fit I had crossed the ‘age limit’ to apply making this ‘almost successful attempt’ my last attempt.
Now the world around me was ready to ‘suck my blood’ and in their eyes I was a ‘PARASITE’ sucking the hard earned money of my father. I was surrounded by a sea of ‘Engineers & MBAs’ in my colony and relatives, anybody of them getting placed anywhere was highlighted by my family signalling that I am a ‘LOSER’.

With no chance to go in army due to crossed ‘Age Limit’ I started preparing for masters and at last manage to get admission in SYMBIOSIS ,PUNE in M.Sc(CA) via SNAP in June 2010. Now some ‘caring’ people started ‘worrying’ that I will get spoiled in the ‘ultra-modern’ environment of Symbiosis(image of symbiosis in my area) and Pune. Many of them told my parents ‘’levies ka jeans ,rayban sunglass ye sab kharidiye  DWIVEDI JI  beta SYMBIOSIS jar aha hai ’’.

Here in Symbiosis in the first semester I got ‘four backlogs’ as it was after two years that I was in regular studies with a ‘really tough syllabus’ and ‘strict grade scheme’. In the second semester also I ended up with two backlogs .Now I started thinking what to do and what not to. Then my friends in this college helped like AMOGH, ANKUR, SITESH, SAMAR and many more. Then came the third semester, this time I cleared all the paper  with ‘flying colours ‘and at present I am an intern at ‘AMIWORKS ‘my first company  and I am doing stuff which I want  to do . 

One more interesting thing ‘FEW DAYS BEFORE I GOT MY FIRST SALARY’.I am happy and proud of myself that I went for my dreams against people around me to achieve it (I was selected; only my fate failed me).

My only dream since childhood was to wish to wear a uniform. Though I failed to achieve but it helped me to become a man. Principles and discipline of army still guide my heart & actions and they will till I am alive. Though I failed most of the times one thing which never changed was my parents love for me. I will always be thankful to them for keeping patience and having trust on me. I learned to fight from previous failure while giving SSB I learned whom to trust and how to live life. I got my good friends who helped me though they could have left me by making lame excuses but they didn’t. I am doing well now but this is not the end I will do something better that will give me my own identity and separate me from the crowd.
 

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